wednesday

well have a quick update before going for training. hopefully i get to partner jo again and she doesn reach too late? lol

feels great to not have sch on a wed when everyone else is in sch.. haha.. im evil i know. (: anyway just spend the whole day clearing up my ALL my projects. well its all mostly done alr i guess but there is still the editing part left which i think should be quite alright. (: finally~ *sigh* sadly i haven even touched any of my books for today. oh well, nvm i'll be going to sch earlier tmr just to study. o.O 3 more weeks to go.. (: (self-encouragement -.-")

dont think i have the time to rest over this weekend.. i wanna slack!!!! zzzz...

time for training..

spurred

Alright, i'll have a post up before the feeling goes off and i'm to busy to blog anything. (:

School has started again. so far im surviving for now with every break used to do projects or study. o.O the joy of school life.. hahaa.

Anyway i finally went for training, yes finally.. kind of lost the feeling to train over the past few weeks due to attachment and i didn get to partner whom i'll enjoy my time with..

First class was rather enjoyable. i didn get to know that lady's name but she is good(techniques) and nice.. talks (and smiles which is rare for ppl from cairnhill ), teaches/corrects my mistakes and shows me where i'm so open to an attack.. i still have a super long way to go in perfecting my techniques now that i know even more mistakes which i still do make.. She threw me like nothing and the number of times i actually just got slammed onto the mat.. -.- i can imagine if she really just go with the technique.. o.O

Second class was made even more enjoyable cause i partnered JO! (: a super long time since i last partnered her and chatted with her..we kept giggling or mayb it was just me.. hmm.. no other words to describe 2nd class except enjoyable XD hmm or mayb without the part i was in heaven for 5sec when kotegaishi was done on my right wrist. lol

Today's training reminded me why i kept on going for training before my attachment. to understand how to do the techniques or perfecting them which means also having enjoyable partners. well hopefully this would spur me to go for monday classes next week or mayb even wed classes. but with 6 proj and 2 test/exam over the next 2 weeks.. im so going to enjoy the next 1 and half months.. -.-

Anyway i should be rushing to do my proj now or at least even studying.. o.O

spur me on...

beginning or the end

well attachment has ended and sch is starting.. i don't know if i should be happy that my posting has ended or sch is starting. the tiring work or the never ending probs from proj and exams.. not comforting..

Lela called me earlier on.. she has to make up 1 week of her posting as she got conjunctivitis. hahaa.. how the whole story started was quite funny but shall not bore those who do read my blog. lol.

She told me this: relax and don't stress yourself layho.. enjoy your last day, tmr then start to stress about the projects... well she had admited over the past 4 weeks none of them had thought abt the proj except me? haha.. kinda true as i've to edit the slides. looking through the slides, i have no comments... oh well all the extra work.. o.O

Should i go out and slack after dinner later since i know i wont be able to do so over the next month or so...

behind the close curtains...

Paediatrics

2 weeks at NUH paeds ward. well initially i kind of dislike being in the department but by the end of the 2 weeks i'm actually quite ok in this department. well, im still not very sure if i'll will want to be in that department in the future though. lol

The attachment ended with ot as usual, for me, as always. But it was a sad ending unlike my other attachments. cant explain what had happen.. well at least the most of my patients whom i have taken care of went home which is nice (:

Hmm my family conclusion is funny but neither can i be bothered by it. oh well..

Be strong no matter what. Fall when u need to. When fallen rmb to stand up ltr.

o.O

i was perpetually staring only at my bowl of porridge over lunch.

i feel like talking to someone/go out..

i feel like crap.

irritated

extremely irritated n pissed. extremely. your are like only 4 yrs older than me. and im alr 18 yrs old. nth big till i deserved that la. grow up and control yourself. so much for who is more stubborn and violent. u are tired so am i and its not like i every vented my frustrations that way before even when im extremely extremely tired. bad mood yes i admit but never to this extend like what u did. i did not do anything disrespectful to u in the first place and i talked nicely to u. that was overboard.

tired then dun go out with anyone and stay home n rest.

i feel hurt cause i respect u..

fuck

Gynecology

My week at the gyn is coming to an end so is my attachment at KKH. well the food there sux but the staff there are actually quite nice. they taught us alot and hence we are able to do many things though but right we are not allowed to. LOL.

My week....
twice i've seen an aborted fetus. the first one was a 20 weeker in other words abt 5 months old alr. its really kinda sad. all well formed and growing well. it was a he.. the 2nd aborted fetus was not exactly well formed and the brain was all jelly. gross but its sad. all the mixed feelings i got when i saw the dead fetus.. lifeless.. there goes another life.. a torture...

saw a husband cried.. the couple had so much wanted for a baby but they had no choice but to abort they baby which no longer had any heartbeat. seeing couples, women so want babies so much but they cant while on the other hand they just want to get rid of the tiny life in their womb. well of there are some who are in a dilemma.

well i've enjoyed my posting. understanding life etc. the vulnerability... i managed to learn, do n see many things and im glad despite the really boring times. lol

ps: there is a cute doc and i assisted him twice when he was inserting the cervagem(drug) into the patient's vagina. LOL ok wadever layho... heh