piece of... (only my sis n me know what continues XD)

Hadn't really plan on blogging but since my younger sis insisted (here she is beside me complaining) so here it goes. hahahaa~ My great sis ask me to bake cookie with her and ended up i did everything myself. From start to end. All she did was wait for the cookie to be baked, cooled and EATEN. o_O My mom also stole the cookies while i was still baking when i had wanted to take pic of all the cookies when they were done.. My mom was complaining when could we start dinner as we were still baking.. noisy~ haha...

In the oven.....

Who's stealing my cookie?!
Must be her who stole it...zZzZzzzz

Our dinner was like on the super salty side.. The soup is naturally salty but together with the fish which my aunt brought over today.... *-* Eating the fish alone without rice definitely high~ haha.

At times when my younger sis and i are full already we start to play around with our food, behaving like 2 really young kids, like what we did today.. Kept laughing our heads off till our mom got irritated.. hehee.. And even now as i am blogging we are still laughing.. LOL This reminds me when my whole family goes to any sushi restaurant we definitely laugh and behave the way my sis and i were like today (besides the part of playing with the food) Hahaa.. yes, this includes my mom too! All of us high and laughing crazily but of cause civilised.. =p

Shall continue to 'high' with my sis and cookies... Wahahaa..... XD

Hmm who wants some..? =p

emo~

400m race 3rd place.

















before her 4x4m race..

















2nd for 4x4m race













hmm the pic arent really clear as i was using my handphone to take the pictures.. anyway proud that my sis manage to win her medals even with an injury.. (= a tinge of disappointment that we didn't have dinner together to celebrate but doesn't matter. There is still time to celebrate..hehee.

Been rather moody these few days. Probably due to the lack of sleep and getting headaches which last throughout the whole day when it comes. Lots of things weighing down in my mind, giving myself maybe too much pressure, maybe i'm still yearning for something. Something which i probably yearn for constantly and over the past few years... Or maybe i didnt appreciate it, didn't notice or realise.. Like the chinese phrase shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu..

The post which i blog lately all sound so emo.. Probably shall stop blogging for time being or post less emo stuff. My poor readers... hahaa.

Geeky Side of Me?

Well i am rather bored and tired after staying home the whole afternoon studying. Been trying to clear up my assignments but a pile left still with an extra headache.. sheesh.. Not knowing what to post about this time i decided to upload 2 pic of the brain..

I don't know how reliable these pic are but it was also shown in bio lecture.. Hmm its rather interesting how a female and male brain thinks eh.. hehee. Or only geeky people like me sees it that way..o_O

Pondering, wondering, contemplating.. (= crazy me.. lol

Enough of scary images..

It feels good to have company for dinner after training. Filling up our empty stomachs while updating each other with the daily events. But i realise something which i dislike terribly. These few weeks i noticed i have been hearing loads of gross and sadist things like the description of the movie 'saw', Farid's sadist thoughts.. etc.

Despite being a future nurse, seeing and handling blood, looking and smelling really bad wounds, i highly doubt i'll be disgusted by it. Its somewhat different from what is being heard or seen in gross or horror movies.. Hearing my patients whine n moan in pain especially when moving them is bad enough already what more the exaggerated version in theatres.. sheesh.. This is something which i doubt i can fully understand the thrill of watching such gross or horror shows..

Anyway i finally lost my temper and kinda 'scolded' my student who is just 2 years younger then me. But i don't care, too bad im her tutor. During tuition im a teacher other times im a friend. Too bad she crossed the line thinking she can fool around. Said some rather sharp words openly used infront of her mom even. yes.. im crazy.. Its just too bad her mom was sitting at the dining table using the lappy there.

Seriously she should be more independent and responsible at this age. Constantly changing tuition days like im free every single day to fit her 'busy' schedule. Always forgetting to get back to me of when to have tuition and ending up its me to get back to her. Once in awhile this happens it alright but always.. sheesh gives me the feeling like i desperately need to give tuition for money.. I can understand when people get busy they tend to forget things blah blah... but this is too much..

Leaving books in school and not even ready for tuition with all the books needed hence running up n down the stairs to grab the necessary stuff one at a time. REALLY... Not being able to do homework i can close an eye but everytime or with a stupid reason? Nvm about hw, but forgetting something taught totally as though no impression of learning it.. Always wasting her time re-teaching her again. Its frustrating and irritating, bascially my patience is wearing.. Being a tutor i gotta show some results, at least i know im doing my job and not just taking the money. Do things to my best if i want to get commited, something which i always believe in doing till i decide to give up but not easily.

Actually she is clever and a fast learner. She can grasp the theory and understand things easily but sadly she's lazy. Maybe due to her last 5 years staying in Australia with a easy relaxed life unlike Spore which is fast paced and stressful. I know her mom so in a way gotta hang in there till cannot tahan.. haiz.. her mom is too nice.. (:

School just started not long ago only and im feeling physically tired already. Hmm mentally... oh well. Ganbate! LOL..

Bored..

Feeling tired now but i don't really feel like sleeping yet. Had actually slept in the afternoon for abt an hour but waking up to feel more weary only. hmm wonder y...

Spent like 3/4 of the night trying to figure out how to go about doing this ICA project. End up i didn't make much progress...haha i guess my mates all are facing the same problem. lol. Got bored of thinking how to start the script, hence went to search on what happen to my sis knee. Apparently her knee injury got worse after her rugby class today and it started to swell... Well that knee of hers has better recover by this sat as she has her IVP finals for her 400m i think.

Had wanted to blog a post when szy huey came along reminding me i had some notes to read on the various oxygen mask. The notes were like freaking long and the words were tiny.. caused a headache.. sheesh.. And here i am now typing out my post and complaining.. and yes.. i have more to complain..?lol.

Tmr i start at 8 or rather today and what the heck, here i am still blogging.. Its gonna be a long day today. Lessons all the way till 3 with only and 1 hr break. My bag is gonna be so dam freaking heavy with books plus akd stuff.. ARGH...!!! I doubt i'll bring my sweater and just freeze in the lect theatre for 3 hrs.. -.- hmm use my gi as a subsituite..? lol.. After school going to my student's house to give tuition and later rush off to tpy.. Seriously hope she doesn't give me any more trouble if not i just might find another student to teach even if she is my classmate's daughter. Wrapping off the day will be training. Hope i'll not be too tired till i keep forgeting how to do the moves like the trainings during my attachment.. lol. one last thing i want to whine abt... i didnt get the elective i wanted. Thought i had a chance of learning malay language which is useful in the wards but now im stuck with prefessional image and etiquette. *_* My darling malay friends teach me malay in exchange to learn chinese??? hehee..

BUT thurs and fri no sch...!! Weeee~ thurs only 2 modules 1 is e-lesson and the other, my class changed it to tmr. Fri e-learning day so stuck at home with 2 modules only if im not wrong. Hope its not alot to do..?

I really should catch up with my sleep considering i haven really been sleeping these few days..

Sentosa Again..

Went to sentosa again to celebrate nicholas birthday or rather more of a meet up since his birthday was about a month ago. Had dinner at vivo burger king since all the restuarants had super long queues and we were starving. lol.. After dinner we played pool, teaming up and playing against each other. Edmund couldnt resist asking me to play a game one on one with him.haha.. Played 2 games and we each won one. Gonna meet up with him soon and play again.. If he doesn win me... sheesh.. haha..








Nic opening his belated present













Dai Ping & Me














and again..












Nic hates that little kid! lol~













Nic, Dai Ping & Me

Pool.. And Edmund looks obviously tall and even taller then Gab. o_O

Had loads of fun and especially playing pool! hehee..

invaded privacy.. wtf...

Good Luck!!!

Tomorrow's my older's sis IVP. Its some running compition as usual and she will be representing NTU. Proud of her being able to run fast and bringing home her glorious medals. We always joke about when some robber or theif attacks us or something. She will run after the person and i'll catch up doing some stunt on him. LOL! But sheesh.. she is always making fun of me..-.- haha~

Anyway want to wish her good luck and i believe she needs it. She hasn't been having enough of sleep just to complete her projects at hand and she has been training very hard... but too hard... She injured herself by pulling a hamstring last week i think and now best of all today came home and ask me "can help me massage my leg?" Injuring her right leg intially now also her left. Dunno what kind of injury she has whether its a pull or nerves. i noticed she gets injuries before her compitions.. So unlucky and also mayb her carelessness? hmm..wonder if she will read this post before her run..

Too bad i cant see her run tmr. I'm going out to celebrate nic's bday or a meet up? His birthday was like a month ago but had to postpone celebrating it cuz he was staying with his aunt which is all the way at the other end of spore and he was preparing for his promos. Wondered if he rmb we are suppose to meet up tmr.. lol

Most likely will end up at some restaurant and spending more money!!! damn.. And i still have textbooks to buy... Doubt i'll be able to save much money considering i still have a 21st bday present to get still..faint~ haaa..

Planning to take malay language as my elective although jap does interest me. Considering my future job, malay is more useful.. Speaking of nursing, studying the health modules makes me wonder if im suffering from the symptoms as i relate back to real life. Makes one too weary of their health. And ppl always saying and asking qsn.. simply irritating if u get what i mean..

hmm i think this entry is rather boring.. but as usual..? lol Good luck cheo. And kai jing take care of ur wound if u do read my blog..

This sem..

School has like finally started and i'm prepared to have a crazy and busy sem.. Really got to take out loads of unwanted memory to stuff in the new ones for so important things like medicine and wound dressing.... Lets just say i really want to be prepared for my next attachment.. in case i make a serious mistake and fail the module...Thats definitely the last thing i will want.. Loads of projects coming up.. sheesh i feel like i'm whining or i am already? lol..

Ahhh.. but i feel like i should say something about this module 1093. When the lecturer said what this module was about and what we gonna do for our labs, it got the whole lect theatre high. Something which isn't very appropriate to say here and i'm not exactly looking forward to the labs.. No doubt its a good practice but.. -.-

I've been getting more idiotic lately.. bringing the wrong lect notes 2 days in a row when i thot i had made sure no mistakes made for the 2nd day.. Getting dumber or too many things on my mind.. Whichever i'm still pretty dumb.

A record for me i guess.. During training i got hurt in 3 different areas within just merely a few hours.. Lets see, first if i have not mistaken, i got hit my you sheng toes resulting in contusions of 2 small dotes at my knee despite the area hurting. Looks funny but sheesh i was rather retarded not to move away.. think i was talking to hui ru.. Wonder what his toes are made of.. haha.. Did knee walking and ouch~ nvm.. this is nothing much..

Next i think i got my thumb sprain too but i think luckily not the bad as joanna although its swollen. This time i think it might be done by hui ru. lol.. Having a sprain thumb is nothing much but having it on the dominant hand is bad.. hinders even just by brushing teeth, writing..
anything that needs to make use of the thumb..

Lastly is a crack in the back..OUCH~ Sam the ham don't worry too much and not to put the blame on yourself. (: accidents happen.. but just be more gentle with gals.. hehee..

Aiki ppl in nyp are becoming more dangerous.. haha.. Gotta be more careful with them when training. lol

Indescribable

Happy 13th birthday to my younger sis! (: Went to suki sushi for dinner. Took loads of crappy pics together.. hmm most likely i won't but posting the pics =p She was pretty fascinated with her present we gave her although it wasnt the kind of colour she liked. The red 'letter box' coin box was out of stock! Shall not say what had happen to it when she took it out.. -.-

Anyway the sushi at suki sushi was alright.. mayb it does taste nicer as compared to sakae sushi but i agree with my family members that its abit on the salty side.. But comparing to genki sushi.. Gosh... a place which i would most likely go back when i have my pockets fuller? haha.. The sushi eaten at genki was a little on the pricy side but was worth the money...i guess? lol. It shouldn't be a place to go there often to eat anyway if not the 'feeling' will disappear.. well at least it applies to me.. And 1 more thing, if u wanna go to billy bombers i suggest go to the marina square outlet. Comparing with the other outlets i went to so far.. yea... Still find that its the best place to have a milkshake.. slurps~ hee...

Been wanting to blog smth which is why i wrote this post.. But now i dunno where to start or how to start.. hmm its weird to read smth happy and light hearted intially now it suddenly switches to the totally opposite.. anyway read if u want to.. lol

Sheesh i have been hearing scary things lately and some things just have to happen at such a time.. i am tired but not to the extreme yet.. i hope i dun get to that stage now that school is just going to start.. hmm maybe its just a feeling now.. probably i'll get over it awhile ltr..

Maybe i'm trying too hard in everything..? Having too high expectations..? I've been putting myself in other ppl's shoes trying to understand. Time and again i convinced myself that this must be their reason.. but am i just trying to console myself, bluff myself, trying to be an understanding person.....? i don't know...

I don't know how else to express myself further although i feel there are still things left unsaid. Shall leave this dangling halfway.

Just waiting for it to come.....if it does..

Sentosa

Had an akd outing organised by my seniors! Big thanks to them (: Shall not say much but let the mostly candid picture do the speaking. Don't mind if it doesn look very nice.






Hui Ru and Me. My darling partner always. =D




























Gab and his chocolate! *stares* O.O












Most of the nyp akd members. (:









Lets see.. i think hui ru and me trained from 4.30 till abt 10 almost continuously? o.O Went home with 'burns' on my left elbow and inner malleous of my left leg.. Evidence of training..? LOL! We didnt even realise the time but had great fun testing on each other.=D

The Old Man..

Just went to send my mom's shoe to the clobber and sat there looking at him working. He looks like in his 60's, has a hearing impairment on his left ear and smth wrong with his right eye.

Sat there for about 20min seeing him mend her shoe. His hands were shivering slightly trying to cut the rubber to fit the sole of the heel. Pants were covered with glue, hands were black and also covered with glue. Sitting on his small stool with a little cushion on it. He had to bend forward for long periods of time just to mend shoes, at the end of the day going home with a back ache at the lumbar region probably.

What made me blog about him was he had been rather meticulous in what he was doing comparing to the other clobbers i have watched. The aunties who were claiming back their shoes were very nice to him. Seeing the way they thanked him made me feel he deserve it. Before i left i thanked him and he thanked me back. No doubt i helped him earn more money i don't feel he had needed to say that to me...

Its sad to see elderly ppl in this state although of cause there are others who are worse off. How many clobbers do you see around your estate and are young..? i believe none of the ppl in our generation had learnt how to mend their shoes although it does look easy. Wonder in the future if there will be anyone seen doing that at the void decks..

There is nothing to look down upon on such ppl and their jobs. Even those ppl cleaning our plate at hawker centres, food courts and fast food. This reminds me of an incident of a young man whom i saw at NUH during attachment but shall not elaborate any further. Shouldn't look down upon someone just because of their job.

Its been a long time since i last cook for my family already! Cook lunch for everyone today but the noodles ended up a bit on the salty side. LOL..hmm lost my touch of cooking maybe..

Been going to restaurants lately and i'm broke already. Tmr might be going again for dinner. o.O Faints~ Actually everyones like turning broke but for the fun joy and laughter. hmm.. y not before school starts and it will be hard for everyone to meet up? Money can be saved again. Sheesh i realise the only thing i have been spending on is acutally food... The amount of money that went there...

Have been pondering alot and letting thoughts just wonder off which i know fully well why i shouldn't. Or rather i had convinced myself why i should not.. Sometimes things won't just go the way one hopes. Allow things to go naturally and let it lead the way..? Seems like the only way.

Letting things be the way they are... Hope i don't regret but what can i do anyway.. o.O

He died and left

Krusty drinking his water.

He looks so cute n fat!

zzzzzzz...





















krusty n dusty in lala land~















the last pic i took of him while he wasn't behaving normally.











My darling krusty left his buddy and me at about 2.08am this morning when i saw him lifeless.

Came home at abt 11pm ytd after training with his fav cheese seeing that he hasn't been really well and behaving abnormally the past 2 days. Thought of feeding it to him this morning but he left too early. Purposely went to buy the cheese and he died even before he could have it.. regret not feeding it to him when i came home. at least he could have his wonderful cheese before he left with an empty stomach.

Had been planning to bring him with dusty to the since dusty needed his tooth done this week. although most likely the vet wouldn't be able to find out what was wrong with krusty at least i tried. all said but not done..

When i found krusty lifeless, i was hoping that when i prodded and stroke him he would suddenly just jump and run away but he layed there lifeless with a body already stiffened. he was lying with dusty i guess before he died but in a awkard position maybe.. left him there with dusty for one last night.

I woke up to see him still lifeless.. with dusty lying on him and grooming him still. dusty looked silly doing that but...

Feels stupid but i burried him under a tree but couldn't do a proper job. what a lousy owner i am. somehow it seems like God was looking over him cuz i found a spade to help me to dig..

The tank now looks too empty for just 1 gerbil in it...

ps: pardon me for my poor camera skills...