Improving till perfect!

Did something fun today. okay i know i shouldn't be doing this at home but i did it. haha.. i trail run some of the aikido movements on my older sister! Her bones were cracking away as i did but according to her its normal. But i cracked her wriste and she complained of pain but we were laughing away. crazy ppl like us.. lol

wonder why the techniques didn't quite work. Maybe during trainings our partners would relax and allow us to do the technique and follow with the flow of the movement. my sis did put up quite abit of resistance i guess due to fear of not knowing what i was going to do or being mentally prepared. But maybe i was quite gentle with her cause i was afraid i would injure her.

If someone is to attack me now i highly doubt i can bring down the person after my trail run with my sister. In my heart i know i still have a long way to go in just perfecting those movements i have done. At least now i have a feel of how different it is to apply it in real life to bring a person down to the ground. Wonder in the first place whether the attacker would even follow the flow of your movements.

Perfecting the technique already and not just the movement is difficult but applying the theories such as using your oponent's strength to bring them down. Seems like i will take years to grasp this theory. Hmm i seem to be thinking really very far considering that i'm only an orange belt. LOL.

Shall continue to make use of all trainings to improve! Gambatte~

Orange belt!!! Weee~

Weee~ collected my results for my grading already. hmm i didn't jump grade but well at least i passed! Finally i don't look so white already, now it has changed to orange. A nice bright orange.. yups..

Actually feeling a little unwell today but still went for training cause i thought i felt better before leaving the house. In the bus the uncomfortable feeling came back again. sheesh.. but anyway the first thing we did was rolling! crappy.. definitely not a nice way to start training especially when im not feeling well. rolling forward and backwards. giddy~ I have nv done rolling backwards before actually but i anyhow did. wonder if i had done it successfully or not as the black hakama guy complimented that i did very well and the seniors should learn from me... i shall take it as a form of encouragement, anyway later he told me i should practice more cause i couldn't quite catch some of the movements which we later did.

The whole time during training i kept looking at the clock hoping to see it nears 8.25 soon as we usually end at that time. I was already seeing stars half hr later after training... lol Did a new technique today and still can't quite grasp it.

I can proudly say that joanna n YL skills are better i think.. considering today i had partnered with a blue belt who is the same as my 2 seniors. This tanglin member although can do all the movements nicely i think but it doesn't feel quite right. mayb she didn't want to apply the "force" but whichever it is doesn't feel quite right as compared to the others.

Received a 6 sms long msg from gab made me start thinking what will happen to us if there is no training anymore after he has graduated.. I find that i learn alot there especially my mistake and how to improve the tehnique further.. It wil definitely be difficult to continue having such trainings but even if it does continue, it will feel weird. further more i think none of us have such great knowledge in aikido. Not that i look down upon my dearest seniors but yea..

The stupid sch hasn't called me back to do relief teaching yet.. wondering if they will ever call me actually. but i guess now the lazy teachers won't be taking off so easily now that exams are nearing.. Hence the chances of me going back to earn money seems pretty slim..

My hols seems boring this time..Looking forward to going to billy bombers with YL, joanna and gab. I miss drinking my milkshakes. slurps~ hahaa Gab had better faster fix a day during the hols with his 2 angels before school starts again.. Not exactly looking forward for sch to start as the first thing that comes to my mind is the projects but then again thinking of my boring hols... oh wells...

Anyway congrats to all who has successfully gone a grade higher. AND also Happy Birthday to Joanna! (:

3 more weeks...

sheesh.. everyone are starting sch already.well not many ppl to accompany me during my next few weeks of hols already i guess. this might be a lonely hol now that everyone is busy with their studies and sch..

i got the reply from MOE to do relief teaching so i shall be going back to my sec sch and apply. hope i don't die under their hands after hearing what my friends have commented. HAHAHA.

Haven been able to contact my student hence i can't confirm when to start tuition again.. pretty tiring teaching her. her problem could be she lived in Australia for 5 yrs i think so she has been living a relax and slow life. anyway she had better buck up if she wants to do well and excel. okay i not really very good at expressing my thoughts so i cant really elaborate much about it..

jumbled up mind. enjoy ur sch den my friends.. lol

Pondering..

Hols has officially started and im going to do relief teaching like my bestie have been doing during her hols every since she graduated from sec sch? Wonder how am i going to die there with those kids.. haha...

Mayb i have been too free over these few days till i have been thinking too much..? once i start work i believe it will nt be that bad.. the constant pondering which could have resulted in the inability to fall asleep dispite feeling tired?

went out with do n mic ytd to get nic bday present.. well nic had better be able to make use of it if not "finger cracks" hahaa.. things had happened again ytd. where should i start or how should i blog.... shall skip that part of it. anway will it be the end of it? for the better or the worse. no doubt no one is ever perfect but shouldn one try to improve themselves constantly be it character, thinking... will stubborness kill? it should nv be abt oneself instead yourself together with the people surrounding you.. Feeling guilty and bad but cant help but to add irritation and confusion to it..

what is considered as everylasting love and friendship..?

anyway today went swimming with dp. haha.not much of sun which i had not been expecting.. weird but it feels like my synovial fluid is running low at my knee joints especially on the left knee..

each time going out with dp we almost everytime would indulge ourselves in wonderful food!yum.. i love the atmosphere, the food n the people whom i will be dining with! i have been doing that ever since i started to work.. but now due to the lack of cash.. it will be once in awhile n mayb cheaper places.. anyone to intro where else has good food with a relaxing n soothing ambience? haha.. im going to grow even fatter already!

pondering....

Miss U Guys!

NYP Students with Sister Batma


Part of the gift..

NYP students with Sister Batma
Its on the door ALREADY!

Sushi, veronica and me!

My shift with Jaswan

Tomo, me and sush with izha's border (:

This is toodi!

Attachment over! Its feels good to finally be able to get to rest but

i'm gonna miss most the people form ward 51. All of them are really darlings and sayangs after getting to know them. Intially we all had felt the staff there were stuck up and not helpful especially the "mr n ms smack thats" but all had turned out well. I had managed to get some of their emails and phone numbers. Had taken some pictures with some of the staff as the nice ones were on morning shift. Gonna miss them all and big thanks to them! Pretty sad i couldn't get a pic with zahidah cause i was busy. Although she had waited awhile but she was in a hurry. At least i got her no.! hahaa..

Ah... and yes the ITE students who came during our 2nd week. nice bunch of students too and had learnt stuff from them.. didn't get a pic with any of them.. Anyway we had shared cost with them to buy cake and card for the staff! The staff were lazy people! They wanted to eat the cake but lazy to cut so end up they hadn't touched it so before i let i cut it for them! LOL.

Should i say unlucky or what but today being the last day in the ward was some what quite busy so espcially when it was nearing the time we going to knock off! Rushing up and down the ward finding stuff etc. Even ytd was busy when after my break. The staff nurses(SN) of the afternoon shift today n tmr had to ot i think to finish their reports.

Cant help but wonder if i will get bored of my job as it seems somewhat quite routine. the only things i feel the staff nurses are busy of is doing their reports and making arrangements for patients for scans discharge... Only sometimes they will change the patients bandages etc when the assistant nurses(AN) cant do it as they are not of skilled enough. PLUS after becoming a SN its like working 7 or 8 days and 1 day off! NO LIFE! after work so tired already and if ot etc.. sheesh. if work night shift then i think 1 or 2 days off before doing morning or afternoon shift. I guess my future husband will be from the wards... HAHAA...

I wonder if i will be posted back to ward 51 again cause some of the ex-nyp students now SN says sometimes we will get posted back to the same ward and smth abt going into that ward to work again after graduating.. oh well..i guess i dun mind ward 51 now! BUT of cause there are the pros and cons.

One more thing! rmb who is toodi? He is back at my house for a week.. we are his caregiver when his owner is not around..

Aikido Grading

Had my aikido grading today. I think i should be able to go to the next grade just crossing my fingers that i can jump belt! weee... anyway if i am able to jump belt i gotta buy the hagama which cost $70 i think. -_-"

I had partner with a nyp senior orange belt. He was like damn nice and funny. The position i was standing was pretty far away so couldn't really what sensei was saying and also the movements were said in japanese although sensei den explain a little. Anyway my senior apple he was like directing me on how i should be doing and some what dropping hints here and there. hahaha... Big THANKS to him.. (",) 2 weeks later then we will know our grades....
We stayed to watch the black belts in black hagama do their grading. So cool.. o.O

Later we went to tpy to eat our lunch at abt 4 or 5 plus i think.. haha. had loads of things to laugh and poor yi yang.. shall not say what had happen.lol.. On the way home i got to talk to the president gabrielle. His passion for aikido reminds me of those who were passionate in chinese orchestra. Now i hold greater respect for him as compared to the rest of the seniors i guess...

Wondering if i should go for training on mon tue n wed.. i think i'll be dead on thurs already. haha..

Attachment

Loads to update although i guess most likely it will not be a long one. Everyone i guess has been waiting for me to update my blog cause the want to know how has my attachment life been so far.

Well it's been a week already. Somewhat quite used to the place already but definitely there is still lots to learn. I'm in an orthopedic ward (fractures) so can see patients with cast and traction etc. If i'm not wrong everyone was pretty shagged everyday for the first week. Standing straight for 8 hrs, i think everyone legs were gonna break. Now i'm pretty used to standing for long hours already cuz its somewhat like my previous job only definitely more tiring.

i haven been able to connect to the internet using my lappy for like 2 weeks coming to 3 already. sheesh.. so now i'm currently using my sis lappy as u can see. lol. wonder when can my cousin come over to fix it.....

i guess the next post will appear some time ltr already.. hahaa