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Ms ng is finally 21. hahaa.. she was so excited yesterday and keep asking me if there are any surprises planned by her friends. i made no comment to it then she didnt want to send me the pic of her bday party. LOL.

My family celebrated her birthday by going to genki sushi! lol.. well she wanted sushi and i was craving for my salmon sushi so we ended up at the The Forum outlet in town. this outlet is bigger den the one at marina square but i prefer the salmon sushi at marina square.. hahaa.. oh well doesn matter, got to eat it and tried some new sushi and a desert. the sushi is nice and my family agrees its nice. (: mayb shall upload the pic some other time.. haa.. Anway happy 21st to my darling sister. *muacks*

Just realise something today. ive been putting on weight over the past few months but its good in a way but bad also?LOL. good in the sense ive been severely underweight since young and have been trying to put on weight till sec sch days. haha. hmm my bmi has nv been in the healthy range till i came poly. and now that i just managed to reached the healthy bmi range, my girlfriends and family are telling me i look fat and should start lose weight? the irony..... i rmb the nurse during the health checkup in pri sch told my mom i should drink more milk.( a somewhat funny incident) probably ive got light bones and still have, comparing i have smaller bone structure den both my sis?! Anyway ive been a pale looking kid since young and still am. hmm i wonder why, comparing with both my sisters that they are healthier than me since babies... sheesh...

Been pondering alot, thinking far, far into the future but realistically of course. All the thoughts of many issues that could leave u feeling lost. hmm in a way its scary to know so much about one's health, diseases and all. becoming more health conscious is good but will i regret entering this profession..? i doubt so but its scary. shall not bother to explain why though i guess u might think wrongly..

hmmm.. its sad to know what ppl treat you for and they admiting it themselves without realising the effect of it. actually i know it all the while without them telling and admitting it to me. But i dunno how to say 'no' which some friends tell me i should be firm and all.. hmm shall stop whining already and shall keep those thoughts to myself and part of it with dp. thanks dp, i know i can depend on u (comforting to know) but still i feel i gotta say sorry.

My best buddy *hugs*

Stupid Me..

Finally some time to relax or rather most of the stress is over for now.. next week wed pract test!! hmm.. and also projects plus an essay.

Anyway i feel extremely stupid today. on the way to school today i missed the stop to alight at yck and y cause i was busily studying the drug card thinking there was still another stop more to go. what had got me thinking all the way home in the mrt after training was my stupid reply to sensei.

Sensei was teaching some stuff and i was processing it rather slowly of what he had meant of not being able to feel your oponent. and of all times he had to pick me to be his example and my first time. well i literally panicked and i had a bad feeling abt it. whenever things happen, humans always allow their feelings to take the reaction rather than cognitive thinking ( i feel nerdy relating back to what i learnt but what im learning is so related to humans that i simply cant ignore!) which was what exactly happened to me. crap. logically thinking i fully well know the ans but at that state i gave such a stupid ans which i feel so stupid now!!!!! LOL. dumb me! hope this doesn happen often? hahaa

Speaking of aikido, grading is coming already!! 20th jan. gosh its so fast we get the next grading already.. probably will have to get a hakama and start tripping over it? well thats what my seniors always tell us.

A guy said this to me today " u have rather bad eye bags..." repeating this a few times but in a way i understood what he meant. actually alot of ppl are telling me this. but there is nothing i can do abt this or rather i dun have enough time to sleep and especially past few weeks.. He said" of cause u can do smth.. wear makeup! thats what the girls in my class do.. masacara......." i was like o_O. im not ur typical kind of girl who u c in sch that wears makeup. neither do i doll myself up unless there is a need to or i feel like it which is rare. even if i do feel like dressing up it will probably be only on the clothes, smth which my poly friends have nv seen or rather only my family and dai ping (mayb nicholas???)only seen before i think. haa. nothing very fanciful but definitely not what i would normally wear. at least to what my poly friends say from the pic in my hp. this sounds so girly~ LOL

the world doesn revolve around you, you have to move with it.

sleep!!!

eeepps.. super sleepy but feel like blogging.haha.. Anyway i found suitable clothes to match for my sis sunshine theme already. haha. went shopping on thurs and fri.. bought a dress and necklace to match with it.. i had 3 hrs of slp on wed night hence have been feeling tired since then till now. lol

crappy.. now that bio is done i have another paper again next week wed. everyone had thought we need not rmb the 30 medications till our pract but dam we need to know for the theory.. faint.. wonder if i can even do well, no..even to remember everything in less then a week.. o_O

speaking of this chances of me skipping aiki again next week seems rather high but having receiving a msg, knowing jan will be my next grading (so fast?!?!?!?!) , attendance and everything.. hmm but come to think of it i think last week wed was the first time after grading i didn go for training i think. LOL. anyway shall train only next wed even though i know i'll probably be dead tired.hmm now i have probably come to understand why hardly any health science students dun have cca if not they are not that commited to their cca. bu of cause there are 1 or 2 exceptionals..

my eyes look red now.

i'll probably reach lala land also immediately my head touchs the pillow. hehe~

slacking~

Its suppose to be afew days later before i blog again but im kinda sick of looking at the bio lect notes already. even now im considering to go for training on wed but partly also because mayb the david sensei (dunno if i got the name correct) might be taking over the class that day. i like training under him though it is more tiring then usual. (:

Anyway i just reformated my conputer and somehow it doesn seem to be quite the same as how it used to be before. wonder what i did or need to do... none of this would had happen if my mom wasnt crazy. she learnt the hard way with me doing the work of reformating the laptop. damn why must gadgets and electronic stuff be so complicated, at least to someone who hates such things.lol

On the way home from training in the train today saw this 6 year old boy who was super cute. haha.. well the train was packed as usual and the kid wanted to sit and was complaining to his mom that he was very tired(but not in a spoilt brat way) ended up sitting on the ground hugging his knees at the feet of his mother. Later he saw a seat and rushed to it and starting viewing the outside. i ended up having a small talk with the mom saying he is very naughty and all but in the eyes i could see it was filled with love. She manage to sit get a seat with beside her son and soon after he feel asleep on the arm of the mother. Kids can be so adorable and cute at times but bringing them up to be upright ppl is difficult. they can a handful at times but they can easily bring joy and smile to the parents or ppl around them.

Hmm..had elective today and and i became the scrap goat. a 'model' for the lecturer to do her makeup on. no idea why she had chosen me out of 44 female students. anyway i look simply weird as the colours used on me didn match and i went to wash them off during the break. haha i cant imagine myself appearing with that face for aiki training. lol. anyway later we had a 1 hr therapy session which made most of the gals cry. o_o it made everyone realise and acknowledge their feelings..

Gotta return back to my book already but sheesh i feel like sleeping. hehee..

Crazy Crappy Nuts.. Wadever u call it.

Its been a few days since i last blogged and probably awhile before i blog again. Just had dinner so shall rest awhile before i continue with my work. Been super busy and will probably become more busy in the weeks to come. Hope i wont be sacrificing my trainings which i will be this wed.

Now is gonna be the start of week 6

Lets see..
week 6 - thurs bio test and i have no idea if what i have studied has gone into my head..

week 7 - wed clinical test which i haven started to study which i probably might be so dead.

week 8 - if my calculation is correct my clinical pract would fall this week. o.O (i hate the aseptic procedures which i either be confused with or forget to do. )

week 9 - a presentation which my group haven started and have no idea how to do and we so hate the lecturer. haha. And also a 1000 word essay to be handed up which holds abt 70% of the module marks?! faints~

LOL i seem to have smth to complain abt each week but i seriously cant wait for the hols to start. hmm i probably have reminded my classmates what the weeks ahead or gonna be. (if they read my blog)

This sunday is gonna be my sister's 21st birthday party and i haven found smth to wear and having a theme of 'sunshine'.qnyone free on thurs, fri or mayb sat? LOL (preferably a girl? haha) hmm guess i'll be the camera women or in charge of the music (smth like that)

hmm lots of things on my mind now.. sheesh.. damn.. im tired. o_o
Till then....

Broken Promise!!!

Weee~ gonna have another 4a class outing. hahaa.. seriously hope i'll be free on that day to go for the bbq cuz the last time i couldn make it.. o_o Gosh i so miss my secondary school days. Probably among all my schooling days i like my sec sch days best. In nyp, probably the only thing keeping me happy or happiest is aikido? LOL. Big thanks and many thanks to my class organisers who faithly organise the outings each time the hols come.. jealous...? haha.. Love my darlings.. (= 4a!

Actually my classmatesin nyp are also very nice and rather bonded. we actually celebrate the bday babies each month when there is. Our wonderful mother lela once cooked curry for our class and brought to sch.. sweet of her yea. But probably there is only one person in the whole class which i guess everyone knows i kinda cant stand. And lately this idiotic person is getting on my nerves. Feel like knocking that idiot's head on the wall. LOL~ haha. the violent side of me?
During orientation..

Ms Ng BROKE her promise she made with ME!!! Teacher nv keep promises, her poor students to be. i pity them..haha.. Anyway she said she wanted to dye her hair and she promise me that will dye her her while i reborn my hair.. Happily announced over breakfast today that she will be going to tony & guy to do her hair without even remembering abt e promise till i reminded her..WTH! Some sister she is.. zzzzz. This isnt the first time already.. sheesh.. i kinda expected smth like this would happen but i was rather hopeful this time actually.. hmmm revenge time??? *evil grin* heheee..

lets see if u can catch whats coming up my sleeves... =p

lala land!

Im dead tired. Now, everyday, accumilated and accumilating since the start of sch. wth am i talking.. sheesh.. yesterday was the first time i slept in class. the lectures for this particular module we are suppose to watch a video to assist us in our lab lesson. But i end up dozing off or rather sleeping. my friend nudge me and i didn even realise! LOL.. skipped the last 2 lect to go home and slp and ended up over sleeping when i was suppose to be at tpy at 7.simply becausei set the alarm wrongly. hehee... now i gotta find time to go to the elp or library to view it on vod. zzzz..

Too tired to think of anything else besides projects and the lab and theory tests coming up. 1 thing i hate aboout my course is the studying. we have to constantly be updated with the latest heath stuff, studying and remembering facts so when we go to the wards we wont be idots and end up getting a scolding. its lifes that i'll be handling which puts the pressure in me. the thought of what is already planned for the next few weeks is killing me..

actually i know where the problem lies. i've been spending quite abit of time in aiki. hmm actually the training is only an hr besides unoff is alright but the time i reach home.phew... its a little too late to do anything already. anything i start would be done halfway. i really dun wish to skip any training but if i cant keep up with my work.. next mon i'll most likely skip training but might still go if im not dead yet. hehee..

went for 2nd training ytd all thanks to gab. really appreciated it. initially stress cuz hui ru and i were not suppose to be in that class in the first place. i keep doing the wrong things. lol. slowly i just went back to my normal focused self when i train usually and got the hang if the moves more easily. (= hmm..its kinda sad that the dojo is gonna be taken away and gab is graduating soon so there goes our wonderful 'sensei' cum entertainer? LOL. i sound mean but dun think otherwise. hee. the words dun seem like it can be understood. oh well, nvm. hahaa..

omg. i so tired... gonna continue doing my proj... though all i want to do now is replenish my sleep...

Weekend..

Guess i shall do a post now considering it will be days ltr before i'll be free to do a post.

Novena Peranakan Cuisine
Met up with my uncle and one of my aunts at this peranakan restuarant on saturday (malay chinese kind of place). Its the 2nd time i have eaten such a cuisine. The food is really not bad. I cant judge if its really nice cause i dun usually dine at such restuarants. But according to my uncle and aunt who usually eats such food says its not bad.. thumbs up~ lol..

I like the ambience of the place. Most of the tables are covered with green table cloths and flowery design, the very typical malay kind. On the wall hung chinese paintings. They played soft, slow yet up lifting kind of oldies. The moment one steps into the place, the first thing that touches ones nose is the smell of sambal chilli. Gosh.. Its really nice, everything is nice. LOL. Probably is not the typical kind of restuarant always filled with loads of ppl cuz there wasnt alot of ppl there. I guess what really attracts me to that place is just the ambience, quiet, soothing, portrays a peranakan feel, bringing one back in time a little. I dun quite know how to describe.lol.

Dun expect excellent service and all though it is a restuarant as there was only 1 person to serve(at least when i was there). I love the way they serve the rice. Very cute. He puts the rice into a basket and goes round the table serving the rice directly from the basket to our plate. Hehee. Probably this is the first time im experiencing all this so im a little drawn to that place.

Simply lovely... lol

Family gathering
Had a family gathering with my father's side and thank goodness he didn go.. In my mind i was practically mentally revising all the techniques learnt in aiki in case he does appear even if my aunt say he is not invited. I find it hard to trust my aunts. The only person i trust and hold respect for is this oldest uncle who really helped us alot in times of need and probably my cousins. (= Anyway this gathering was to celebrate my sec uncle bday on sunday. Its the first time i seen his son who is like already 28 according to my mom. Mayb not the first but i cant rmb him though my older sis say we seen when we were real young. LOL.

A surprise birthday party which shocked my uncle and brought tears to him and his wife. Seeing my aunty so excited to c her husband reaction was like so cute. Its sweet.

Romantic Princess
Im i abit into this taiwan serial show. Though the progress of the show is abit on the expected side i still like it. A little like the Gong show but the couple in this show the couple like each other, and as always smth happens and put their love in a test. A romantic and sweet show. (= The only thing abt this show i dislike is the mood of the show changes so fast. lol. Mayb i dun watch alot of television so i dun get exposed much as dp and comments this show doesn give her the feel to 'chase' after the next episode who watches so many shows. haha.

My mom says im always watching such lovey dovey kind of show = makes me more gu niang. o_O i dun c how watching this makes me more lady but hmm..mayb dreamy? i dunno. but i do know among my sisters, im more gu niang? but at times my younger sis is more gu niang. hahaa. sounds confusing eh..

Lastly wanna wish one of my dearest seniors which is Yin Lin Happy Birthday!

Dun expect anything is the best.('',)

Random thoughts..

Been super busy this few days but who's not busy anyway... Piles of assignment that have to be handed up, ICA projects to be done, tests are coming up therefore a need for revision of the modules and especially bio which is driving me nuts. Cant catch a thing what Dr Lam is trying to explain but just today i realise how to understand what he is teaching which is to read up before the lecture..zzzz...

Finally today i get to go home early. Its only thurs and fri i get to come home early (before the moon appears). Anyway came home and took a nap to burn my oil tonight. I realise i haven been able to sleep or rather i feel like haven been sleeping as though my mind is constantly thinking.. Been extremely clumsy, careless and stupid lately. Argh...! Sheesh i feel guitly and bad..

Ytd i have bio lab. Probably all of us walking into the lab hoping we can understand what we are learning better. A 2hr lab lesson ended in 40min !!!!! All of us gave him the stunned look saying "huh?! finish already ah....???" The lect notes usually filled with scribbles was totally empty for most of us... Hope we dun get this part time lecturer for any more lessons. Having lectures without understanding is bad enough plus lab..??? thank goodness my tut lect is good! (=

Sheesh i sound so nerdy but i badly want to do well for my exams for a reason... hmm cant exactly be bothered of how i portray myself... Anyway people have been saying i look so serious and fierce. Heard this my whole life and i know it but i just dun know how to wipe that facial expression away.. lol.


Hmm.. i have still been spending alot cause i haven really been able to save much money. Well at least i haven been drawing money.. Gotta buy books, aiki, bills and all. And now contemplating if i should or a need to buy a drug dictionary which cost 48 bucks.. o_O Its nov already and i still haven gotten and decide a present for my sis (any suggestions? lol) and christmas is coming soon.... faints~

Today suddenly we were reminiscing the times during attachement at NUH. We were laughing our heads off and later i met sushma at yck mrt and we went home together.once again thinking how we laughed on the bus and even at work! hahaaa.. Hope most of our attachements we can be posted together and of the same shift! (=


My younger sis bought this toy for herself but later decided to give it to me as it resembles the nick name she just given to me lately. Hehee.. Thats sweet of her.. Gonna find time to go to shopping malls to find a toy that resembles her nick or something else cute. Hehee.. I feel like a small kid now.. LOL.

Ms Ng dun get jealous.. Wahahaa..=p